I found the text written below this morning on my laptop. I had forgotten that I had written it just after I had come back from my 6 week adventure and travels to Bali and Australia.
Realising that for the first time in my life… I was and am really beginning to feel empowered in myself and trusting that I can support myself and look after myself and “be” on my own.
Below is what I wrote…
Trusting that you have all the answers yourself if you learn to listen to your intuition and connect to your inner guidance system.
One of my past beliefs that I have begun to let go of is that I cannot do “life” on my own and my fear of getting it wrong would stop me from doing anything at all.
When I began my transformative healing journey…whichever practice/course/person that I was connected to at the time became like another addiction. Something that I needed when times were tough.
The true healing comes when you learn what you need to learn from these tools, connect to your inner world and energy and begin to trust yourself.
Trust that you have all that you need to overcome these hurdles on your own.
Empowering yourself to be able to give yourself what you need and work through things yourself.
Yes I believe we all need support, guidance and help to begin with but eventually we need to begin to lean on ourselves.
When I began coaching last year… what I became aware of as time went by is my need to immediately call someone when a challenge presented itself. Call my coach or a friend. To look to someone else for the answers or to help me find the answers. This came from a lack of belief in myself. And if I couldn’t get hold of anyone I would feel anxiety, fear and doubt over whether I could work it out on my own and fear of getting it wrong.
Where I am now is… when challenges present themselves and I immediately become aware of myself reaching for my phone to call someone, coach, therapist, friend….I catch myself and stop. I then give myself time and space to breathe, get present, move my body in anyway that it needs to shift whatever is coming up, go for a walk, connect to nature, give it some space so I may get some clarity.
Sit with being uncomfortable with whatever has come up.
Allow it to pass and trust that I can work it out myself.
And sometimes trust that I don’t even need to know. I just need to be able to sit with it and allow it to pass and raise my vibration back to where I want to be sitting in the not knowing.
Often These beliefs come from experiences that happen to us as a child that lead us to stop trusting in ourselves, stop believing in ourselves. Stop trusting “our gut”. Stop us from believing that we are enough.
We ARE ALL enough.
My role now as a healer, bodyworker, yoga teacher, coach, mentor, whatever label you want to call it, is to guide people back into their bodies, into their light, raise their energy to a place of consciousness where they can begin to feel and trust their inner guidance system. Empower them to be able to listen to themselves and the answers within and take action accordingly. Be fearless and free.
To confront fear right in the face and not be afraid to get it wrong. To do the work themselves. To be empowered independent beings that belief in themselves, trust in themselves and are willing to be courageous enough to stand their ground, stand strong, and as Brene Brown says “braving the wilderness.”
I have never felt more comfortable in my own skin. More connected to who I am, what I feel, why I am feeling it and what I need to do or not do about it.
My desire is to lead by example, especially for my children, so they may learn to be empowered in their lives and feel and trust themselves, to guide, support and share my path with whoever needs help so they may become empowered to connect to and be on their own path.
Standing strong alone… and together.