Last night was the Nyepi ceremonies in Bali. Nyepi is the Hindu New year and a day of silence follows the evening ceremonies. Huge hindu demon god statues are carried around in a procession. It is the day the Hindu demons come out and fly over the land and in order that they fly over and don’t enter anyones homes, silence and darkness is needed. No one is allowed on the streets from 6am. Everything shuts down and closes including the airport. From 6pm til 6am the following morning there is no electricity.
A day of silence.
It is also the New Moon.
Time to think about what I would like to let go of this moon phase.
For me… I am letting go of expectations. Surrendering and letting go of what and how I expect things to look, feel and turn out.
I am now in Ubud, for Nyepi, the spiritual medicine capitol of Bali. Busy, buzzing, amazing jungle energy around. I am here to prepare for assisting on the second half of the forrest yoga teacher training which starts tomorrow. So its like a lock in our resort with all the 41 trainees, assistants and lead teachers, as well as all the other people staying here on holiday.
There is a peaceful calming energy in the air that comes with this lock in and day of silence.
A surrendering and letting go that comes with not being able to go anywhere or do anything.
I am choosing to have time on my own even if I could surround myself all day with friends which is what I usually would have done.
I choose to sit on my own in a beautiful shaded pagoda and write this.
Maybe do a meditation.
Really beginning to enjoy ‘being’ here…now.
Really enjoying ‘being’ present which can be a struggle for me.
“Being’ in this blissful state of gratitude.
Surrendering my mind to the silence.
Connecting to my breath at all times.
Noticing and becoming really sensitive to the subtleness but such brightness of the beauty around me.
Feeling the cool breeze whisper past my head and through my hair. Listening for messages from the trees as their leaves dance in the wind.
The brightness of the colours of the tropical flowers all around.
The patterns and beauty in the tree trunks and shapes the branches of the trees make.
The shadows from the sun and trees and plants.
Becoming more and more present.
More and more connected.
Of course… life has other ideas for me to learn about silence and stillness.
Im not on my own for long. My friends come over wanting to play cards. The 3 of them climb onto the pagoda.
I am carrying on with what I am doing…wanting to be SILENT!
They put on some music.
They are talking….loudly
They start slamming their cards down on the table.
My silence is clearly been interrupted.
Its interesting to observe a slight annoyance build up inside of me with every bang, interruption, distraction.
Bu no sooner that I notice the resistance… I begin giggling to myself as I am writing this …. laughing at yet another opportunity to surrendering to this moment I have attracted.
Letting go of expectations of what I wanted my day of silence to look like.
Allowing what comes my way.
Embracing these wonderful beings that I love so dearly, to be around me whilst I remain still and silent.
Embracing this moment as it is and what gifts it has to offer me.
Drinking the nectar.
I am still within myself and embracing the peace I can feel within when there is noise and distractions around me.
This feeling of groundedness.
What a gift to be able to embrace and connect to the silence and stillness within when there is noise and distractions around you.
What a gift to be able to choose to either feel annoyed by a situation or surrender and receive what the universe has presented before you.